Wanderlust..

You Are 4: The Individualist

You are sensitive and intuitive, with others and yourself.

You are creative and dreamy... plus dramatic and unpredictable.

You're emotionally honest, real, and easily hurt.

Totally expressive, others always know exactly how you feel.

At Your Best: You are inspired, artistic, and introspective. You know what you're thinking, and you can communicate it well.

At Your Worst: You are melancholy, alienated, and withdrawn.

Your Fixation: Envy

Your Primary Fear: To have no identity

Your Primary Desire: To find yourself

Other Number 4's: Alanis Morisette, Johnny Depp, J.D. Salinger, Jim Morrison, and Anne Rice.

What Number Are You?

psycho in a coffee shop

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Well Done

So there was apparently white out storm conditions in Wisconsin last night and that made one of our deliveries extremely late. This was good for me. I woul dhave been done shortly after 4, otherwise. As it was, I went and helped roll posters for a while and then counted the prints in my error packages to kill time while waiting for the delivery to be sorted, spliced, developed and printed. I ended up with something like six more batches and it was nearly 7:45 before I finished everything up. Yay for an almost whole shift!

Thankfully, I wasn't sick last night. Made work a much more pleasant prospect.

I just heard it on the radio and thought it was a pretty good song.

Leave The Pieces
The Wreckers

You're not sure that you love me
But you're not sure enough to let me go
Baby it ain't fair you know
To just keep me hangin' 'round

You say you don't wanna hurt me
Don't want to see my tears
So why are you still standing here
Just watching me drown

And it's alright, yeah I'll be fine
Don't worry 'bout this heart of mine
Just take your love and hit the road
There's nothing you can do or say
You're gonna break my heart anyway
So just leave the pieces when you go

You can drag out the heartache
Baby you can make it quick
Really get it over with
And just let me move on

Don't concern yourself
With this mess you've left for me
I can clean it up, you see
Just as long as you're gone

And it's alright, yeah I'll be fine
Don't worry 'bout this heart of mine
Just take your love and hit the road
There's nothing you can do or say
You're gonna break my heart anyway
So just leave the pieces when you go

You not making up your mind
Is killing me and wasting time
I need so much more than that
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

And it's alright, yeah I'll be fine
Don't worry 'bout this heart of mine
Just take your love and hit the road
There's nothing you can do or say
You're gonna break my heart anyway
So just leave the pieces when you go

Leave the pieces when you go
Oh, yeah
Leave the pieces when you go
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Leave the pieces when you go

Ok, so as soon as I posted to all journals, the net came back up. Go figure.

My net is down, typical. Call if you need/want me before I can get back on.

Mental Note..

Don't sleep with the door latched, dummy.

bad GJ

Ok, so after I posted my last entry and looked at it I found the one where I wondered about going out or not. GJ is being naughty. So I also checked out church schedules wanted to edit the prior post about it.. but GJ won't let me. Worship starts at 8, 10 and 10:30. I had wanted to do the 8am service but it's ten til and there's no way I can be ready and drive there in time. So not this week. Sorry God. Plus it's probably not in the best spirit to arrive smelling of last night's spirits, if you get my drift. Uf da.

I Would Have Sworn..

That I'd posted about my dilemma of whether to go out last night or not, but apparently I did no such thing. Hm. Anyway, I did decide to go out. By myself, which is in itself an amazing feat for a weekend night.

I went to Pi and just as I was starting to think it was a really bad idea.. I was bored, didn't know anyone, didn't see anyone I wanted to know, drinks are expensive, music is not really my deal, the place is FAR from my house.. the lady in the cowboy hat wandered by and stood in front of my table to people watch. Background, the first drink I stood in line for, I was behind her and her friend. I was watching her friend at that point, trying to figure out why a slick lip ring was hanging out with an ernest cowboy hat.

Ok. So I watched her back for a little while and finally managed to (in the middle of my second beer) go up and attempt to open up conversation. I asked if the hat was leather and why I was seeing so many of that style (mostly straw). Apparently, there'd been a line dancing party earlier, which she'd missed, but wanted to appear to be able to fit into. I asked where her friend was.. oo.. there was my answer, slick lip ring girl is engaged to a man and he'd gotten tired of her dallience with the ladies and picked her up early. My good fortune.

Anyway, we clicked very well and spent the rest of the night chatting on the sidelines of the dance floor. At 23 she has a bachelor's in biology and is pissed off because she would have done better going and learning a trade. Not so graceful on the dance floor, by her admission, no evidence to back it up. Sometime smoker. Drinks the same brand of beer. Was able to laugh with me about factory work, though she's in an office, currently. I got to tease her about her non tech geek status, that was a lot of fun.

I haven't laughed and had good conversation with a stranger like that in ages. I told her straight out that I wasn't aiming for a pickup, which probably killed any potential tension. We were able to just sit and BS instead of doing the 'mating dance' that makes life so impossible.

Overall, it was a fun night. I didn't get home til close to three this morning.. now why am I awake? I do not know, but I do have a headache. I've been up since six. That's ok though because I do work tonight and a three hour nap will tide me over til I should go back to bed around 1. I might go to church today, I also think I'm supposed to do brunch with M. I should look up worship schedules for the churches I went to as a child to see times so if I decide to go, I can schedule brunch around that.

I dunno what my problem is recently, I keep pushing one of my pillows away and tossing all day long instead of sleeping properly. The result of this is a constant stiff neck and always being tired, bleah.

Work has slowed down to nothing, I finished by myself on Friday with no help before 6 in the morning. If I'd been using more than two machines, it probably would have been before 4 in the morning. Makes me wonder why they want me to go faster.

So I got a new phone, which I've been getting used to slowly. It's forcing me to use T9 texting because tap style doesn't predict and it takes me five minutes to send a most simple message on the qwerty hybrid otherwise. I've never liked T9, but I see why people use it once they get used to it. The camera is better and the speaker is absolutely better, I dislike that I can't chose the vibration patterns on it though. Most phones give a choice between four or five different patterns. Meh.

To go out or not.. hm. I would like to. That means moving and taking a shower though. It also means clearing snow off my car, spending money and dealing with strangers. Ugh. Well. We'll see.

The lil guy in the ball cap is a catcher, he picks on me a lot but he's nice. The big guy in back is a mini lab operator. He picks on me a lot too, also nice. Enes is playing football with Karl, who didn't make it into the frame.

Uff..

So tonight, just as I finished up working, I was informed there would be a meeting in a moment. Ok fine. I can do a meeting. So we all gathered around at the sorting hub and were handed a copy of a new schedule layout. Daniel and Kong leave us after Thursday night, Nick joins us from Ancillary. Which means I'll get to train him a chunk of the time. He's a nice guy. Nice to look at too, which is better than I can say for most of the people I've had to work with.

So tonight was probably the last time for a while that I'll get to leave early, despite the fact that it's slowing down to nothing at the moment. This is because with Daniel around, I had help all night and while he's virtually useless, he gets around a quarter of the work done. What he did tonight would have taken me an additional 3 hours, but it took him almost 5 to do. Granted, he was running only one machine, but it should have taken perhaps 3 hours on that one machine.

So we lost three people, gained one who doesn't know the work and the lead dropped from five nights a week to four and managed to keep her hours the same. Kathy went to mornings. So what this means is, I will keep the same amount of work, it will take me twice as long and the people running the cutters will keep the same amount of work but be swamped because they've lost a number of people. Huzzah!

I'm A Vampire

Now what the hell did I do with my glasses?

Last Names Can Tell A Lot About A Person

Last night was rough. Within half an hour of starting my shift I got pulled into the office by Drew. George was there as well and this time I was in trouble. Basically, I got called out for stopping to chit chat occasionally (again), using a chair in my area (which everyone does, dammit), making decisions for myself on the best way to go about doing the work (as in, I should not do this), and not being fast enough. I think the phrase 'on task' was actually used in all seriousness.

Jesus people. You can't give me equipment that works properly because the companies that made it are out of business and no one else makes anything remotely similar, you can't give me product that won't cause errors in the old and fucked up equipment and you expect me to work FASTER?!?! I wander around when all my machines are down and I got no way to do anything, that's when I get nailed. I sit when everything is running smoothly and I don't have to be jumping back and forth fixing errors, mixes, reloading stuff, whatever. I'm almost always early for my shifts, I rarely take my full breaks, I'm the ONLY one who'll stand there and do the work for an entire shift, five nights a week and they want more? More when it's slowing down to the point that I was done at 5AM?

When it's slow like this, people come from other departments and do my work for me. That tears my rate down and makes me finish early. I can't get help when it's busy, that also tears my rate down but then I'm stuck staying late as hell. I can't fuckin' win. He told me I'm getting a new guy to help me out, I imagine I'll end up training the kid. If this is the case, I will train him to the best of my ability at night, hunt for jobs during the day and get the hell out of there ASAP.

I'm not a waitress cause I don't move fast. I could get hired at Perkins and be accepted for myself in a heart beat but I can't go that fast and I don't want to lay that burden on them. I will never be a person who moves quickly. I shuffle. I am deliberate in my movements otherwise. But never fast. Sorry Charlie, ain't gonna happen.

AUGH!

Myspace stupidity brought to you by.. Anne's need of an ego boost.

Delete the other person' s last name and repost this with the title "LAST NAMES CAN TELL A LOT ABOUT A PERSON".. in 11 minutes and something wonderful will happen...

C You are really silly.
O Awesome kisser.
L You Are Great in bed.
E Awesome in bed.
S Freakin crazy.
T You're loyal to those you love.
O Awesome kisser.
C You are really silly.
K You're wild and crazy.

A : You like to drink
B : You like people.
C : You are really silly.
D: You Are Great in bed.
E: Awesome in bed.
F : You are dead sexy.
G : You never let people tell you what to do.
H : You have a very good personality and good looks
I : You're loyal to those you love.
J : People Adore yOU
K : You're wild and crazy.
L: You Are Great in bed.
M : You like to drink.
N : Easy to fall in love with.
O: Awesome kisser.
P : You are popular with all types of people
Q : You are a hypocrite.
R : You like to party.
S : Freakin crazy.
T : You're loyal to those you love.
U : You really like to chill
V : You are not judgemental.
W : Awesome kisser.
X : You never let people tell you what to do.
Y: Best bf/gf anyone could ask for
Z : Always remembered♥

Couldn't the author of this found something different for each letter? There are only 26 after all.

Maggie In Her Undies!

Just WOW guys!

On the upside..

Since I got dumped, my cashflow is back in the black at the end of the pay period. Two days til payday and I have almost a hundred dollars still. That's what she was costing me every two weeks, a hundred or more dollars in gas, food, bar trips and such. My milage has gone back up to almost 30 a gallon, my miles driven have dropped by more than a hundred a week. Whee!

Now, if I could just get a healthy social life, that'd be excellent.

It sucks to worry that a gift I sen tmight be stolen and sold before the recipient can even see the box it arrived in. Next time, if there is a next time, I will have to get Daryl's address and send it there instead.

Feh. Anyway, work is slowing down again, we were under 8k rolls last night and I was finished at almost 8:30 on the dot. That, though I was pissed at the time, was fantastic.

I don't know if I ever mentioned, but I got my grades back on my just completed courses. I was mildly disappointed, I got a C in critical thinking and a B- in writing. I completely blame myself for allowing a new relationship to get in the way. It's very annoying. In any case, I did pass though and I'll go on to the next two courses next month. The interesting ones are starting to come up, that's kind of exciting.

I still feel like I need a different job, but knowing Kathy will be in most mornings to cover the ends of my shifts so I don't have to stay late so much makes it a lot easier to tolerate. And the money really is good. I'm due another raise soon. In April, I'd be eligle for a week's paid vacation. My actual area will be obsolete eventually, but who knows?

I need to buy cloth bandaids, we just have cheap plastic ones here at home and honestly? They don't stay in place very well ..I use a lot of them on winter caused hangnails and split cuticles. Maybe I should buy some cuticle oil.

So can someone tell me, am I destined to forever bounce from relationship to relationship like some out of control little super ball? No, I have not gotten into another one. But it might be coming, I don't know yet. Uff.

Ahh..

No, it's not a naked pic you sickie!
I used my new shampoo and conditioner this evening, I tried very hard to make it a long shower but I was only gone about 40 minutes, so it was a short shower because of the prep stuff I did before and the grooming after.

I had a whole entry written, but when I went to plug my cam in to take this picture I got a stop windows blue screen and had to reboot. I hate when that happens. I should redo my jump drive backup so if it dies I don't lose any of the new items I've added. Anyway, that's why I don't look very happy here. But the point is the HAIR!

Look!

This was my NYE party on Thursday night. These are the ladies I occasionally speak of when I tell stories of ladies night antics. Most of them, anyway.
From right to left, Lynn, Heather and Tracey. We're officially known as the goth girls, I dunno why! Sorry, I took the picture, so I wasn't in it. Boohoo!

Also, apologies for the quality of it, the Budweiser sign in the background sort of sucked away all the flash's ability to light the subjects, so this is heavily touched up to make them show.

What Anne Means

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Just because..

I shared this with a friend who posted it over at lj, but I thought I'd share it here too.
Love 2008
It's a video, it may open directly in your media player, the sound doesn't need to be loud, but it is required.

This is called “FIRST REACTIONS QUIZ”. You have to type the 1ST thing that comes to mind whenever you hear these 35 things. You can’t think and go back and change your answers. TIP: erase all of the other persons answers first..that way u can think in blank

Here we go

1. Beer: Premium.

2. McDonalds: Cheap.

3. Relationships: Don't have one.

4. Purple: My journal.

5. Power Rangers: Goofy.

6. Weed: Illegal.

7. Steroids: Personlity altering.

8. Cartoons: Don't watch em.

9. The President: Need's to go.

10. Tupperware: Gladware.

11. Florida: Oranges.

12. Sand: Doesn't belong in pants.

13. Halloween: Candy.

14. Alice: Wonderland.

15. Grammar: Important.

16: Myspace: Annoying.

17. Clowns: Who cares?

18. Marriage: Done it.

20. Pat: The dog.

21. Redheads: I dated a few of those.

22. Blondes: Is it real?

23. Pass: Hall.

24. One night stands: Worthless.

25. donald trump: The hair!

26. peter pan: Never grow up.

27. Pixie: Stix.

28. Vanilla ice cream: Enjoyable.

29. Hooters: A place to eat.

30. High school musical: Haven't seen it.

31. pajamas: Necessary.

32. Woody: Inappropriate.

33. Wet Socks: Put em in the dryer.

35. Love: Necessary.

Do you ever..

Do you ever know you need to do something, but you just cannot force yourself to do it? It doesn't even need to be something important or unpleasant, just anything that should be done.

Like I need to go to bed, but I can't force myself out of the chair and into the bed. I keep going to the same sites, over and over again, trying to find anything to distract me so I don't have to go to sleep.

Sleeping isn't unpleasant, I don't suffer nightmares, the temp in my room is comfortable and so is my bed, the house is quiet, there's nothing to miss in sleeping. But I just.. cannot. Pathetic huh?

And for other inane things to keep me from going to sleep, I need to buy new hoops for my ear. This not having a bead thing is really starting to get on my nerves. The closed edges get caught in the holes and irritate my ear quite a bit, especially when I use the phone a lot. Plus I can't imagine it's healthy to have metal through skin for I don't know how many years without ever removing it. Makes the holes hard to clean, too. Guess I'll be going to Electric Fetus sometime soon to check out jewelry.

Dominic is utterly adorable when he's not being a little prick. Right now he's taking up my entire bed while sleeping with his face under his paw. How does an 8 month old kitten take up an entire queen bed? I don't know.

Ok, I guess I'll go change my laundry to the dryer and try to sleep some. It's ladies night, so I'll be out tonight ..but maybe you can catch me when I get home and have an amusing conversation with drunken me. Might be fun.

YOU OPENED IT, YOU GOTTA DO IT!!
NO LYING!!

Do you have the following in your room:

Condoms:
Absolutely not.

Cell phone:
if I'm in here, it's in here.

Chair/stool:
A desk chair and a leather easy chair.

Book shelf:
Yeah, but it's got knicknacks all over it.

Dresser:
Three of them.

Computer/laptop:
One of each.

Bean bag:
Never.

Pictures:
A photo album, yes.

Mirror(s):
Sadly not.

Skateboard:
Why?

Bed:
Well, it is a BEDroom. It's a queen bed.

Clothes on the floor:
Yeah, but they're folded neatly.

Plastic flamingo:
Err.. I wouldn't even have those in my yard.

Surfboard:
I'm landlocked.

Smoke detector:
In the hall where it belongs. Not that it works.

Piano/keyboard/guitar/bass/drums:
Nope, I am non musical.

Locking door?
Yes, but I don't even close it.

Bottle of water:
A quarter of one, yes.

A blacklight:
Not since I was a teen.

Medals/ribbons:
Nope.

Awards:
Isn't that the same as above?

Sports equipment:
Um.. nope.

CDs:
Blank ones.

Hidden bottles of liquor:
Well, if the fact that it's behind the heater on my bedside table counts as hidden then yes, a bottle of wine.

Stop sign/any sign:
Frog Crossing. Stop Ahead.

Caution tape:
No.

Paintball gun:
No.

real guns:
No.

Cigarettes:
Not at the moment.

Books:
A few.

Nintendo:
No.. but I want a Wii.

Stereo:
It's in the bathroom.

Television:
Yep.

Lighter:
Like 14 of them.

Gum:
Several different kinds.

How many windows do you have in your room?:
4, plus a copy of XP.

What color are your walls?:
White at the top, blue at the bottom.. I never finished painting.

Hardwood floor, tile, or carpet?
Hardwood and a throw rug.

Do you get ready for the day in your room or the bathroom?
I get dressed and groomed in the bathroom, but I put the finishing touched on in here.

What color are your bed sheets?
Green just at the moment, with purple pillow cases.

What's on your walls?
Posters, a drawing, a bag, a painting, a sign.

Has the opposite sex been in your room before? besides family ?
This was my childhood bedroom, of course there were males in here before I came out of the closet. Sheesh.